Year in Review: 2019 (jk, not yet)

i just clocked a total of 10:33 hours of work/work-related enrichment actions today on the last day of 2018 and i want to scream because that last hour (reviewing what i did in month of December) near killed me so maybe i should not have spent the past hour working but i didn't just want to finish halfway before the year ended but now i'm very wound up and need to decoil

uncoil? decompress but also decoil because i'm very tightly wound up

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

*primal scream*

you can probably tell that my writing hasn't changed in the past 10 years

it's almost 2020 but no i'm not excited
it's fuggin scary
2020
imma be thirty
the big Three-O yo'
watch your back, climate change be creepin up on us
yet i'm still flying
enjoying life
trying to be happy
as the world goes into pieces, goes up in flames, God knows what
will become of humanity
in 2020

^i think i've been listening to too much childish gambino (last night and almost all day) hence the rap/spoken word inspiration flowing out of my ears
yea you heard me
my ears, not my mouth, not my fingers typing on these keys

well it was supposed to be a more joyful review
but this year compared to the last
was more angst
just like this moment compared to this daytime
i was happy until like the past hour
my emotions are like a circus
crazy shit spinning from one side to the other

i spent new years' eve last year working in the office
i'm proud that i am working today too
because i don't care that much about new year's eve or day anyway

a lot of things happened this past year
but i don't think i'm in the best mood to reflect right now
i still want to scream but where i am is not the best place for screaming
what should I do?
i'll be alright once i release my tension and calm down
maybe i should dance
Dance Dance

oh i could watch Carole & Tuesday and it'll be time for the FUCKIN BULLSHIT song!
Song of the year, seriously -
Go watch it
here